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| I don't know why I write in this anymore. No one ever comments. I have no proof that anyone reads it. | | |
| Winter Break finally. It's nice, even though it's not really a break and I spent my first night doing chem. Sleeping is nice.
Last day was wednesday, I went christmas shopping for 6 hours that night, then liz came over for a while and we talked. Thursday I went to Matt's for Asian Style Day (don't ask). We watched Kill Bill volume 2 and Versus, which really made no sense but ... was stylish. Good times, even though your cat hates me and your mom threatened to kill me. *Coat flip* After that I went to frontenac to shop some more and then home. Did some chem then carly called me from work and was gonna come over when she got off but no, she decided to go to uncle bill's instead. I went to bed. Today I went to lunch with my mom and my sister then came home and watched movies and made party mix and addressed christmas card cause we're procrastinators and we're just now sending them. Someone (I have a pretty good idea who it was) left a christmas tree and a candy cane in my mailbox and my dad went out to get it and screamed cause he felt the tree and thought it was alive. It's not alive, but it does light up, and the candy cane was good. Eating something you found in your mailbox probably isn't the best idea but i haven't died yet. Right now I am reading, registering for the SAT and cleaning out my itunes. This is what I do with some of the only true free time I have. The End. | | |
| Opening Credits: Woo Hoo- The 5 6 7 8's
Getting Out of Bed: Sleeping In- The Postal Service
Ordinary Day: Stop Crying Your Heart Out- Oasis
First Kiss: Good Girl Bad Boy- Junior Senior
First Date: San Dimas Highschool Football Rules- The Ataris
Falling in Love: Look After you- The Fray
First Love: Fix You- Coldplay
Fighting with Nothing Better- The Postal Service Breaking Up: Lying is the Most Fun a Girl Can have Without Taking he Clothes Off- Panic! at the Disco
Heart Broken: Don't Speak- No Doubt
Getting Back Together: Luckiest- Ben Fold
Rainy Day Spesnt Indoors: Transatlanticism- Death Cab for Cutie
Regretting A Mistake: Caring is Creepy- The Shins
Day Alone Thinking: Across The Universe- Rufus Wainwright
Hating Someone: There's a Good Reason These Tables are Numbered Honey, You Just Haven't Thought of it Yet- Panic! At The Disco
Secret Crush: I Melt With You- Modern English
Long Drive Alone: Pink Moon- Nick Drake
Confused About Life: The Science of Selling Yourself Short
Hanging Out With Friends: My Best Friend- Weezer
Learning Something New: My Mathematical Mind- Spoon
Mental Breakdown: Stab My Back- That All-American Rejects
Wondering About Future: Kaiser Chiefs- I Predict a Riot
Laying In A Field at Midnight: Run Into Flowers- M83
Leaving Home: Just A Girl- No Doubt
Losing Hope: Get Busy Living or Get Busy Dying- Fall Out Boy
Missing Someone: Wherever You Will Go- The Calling
Letting Go: We Used to be Friends- The Dandy Warhols
Feeling Like You Don't Belong: Attractive Today- Motion City Soundtrack
Make You Feel Better: Dirty Little Secret- The All American Rejects
Flashback: Take Me Away- Lifehouse
Deep In Thought: New Slang- The Shins
Party Scene: Bonanza Akon
Sex Scene: Crash- Gwen Stefani
Marriage: Naked As We Came- Iron and Wine
Growing Old: Best of Me the Starting Line
Reflecting On Your Life: We Will Become Silhouettes - The Postal Service
Death Scene: Jenny Was a Friend of Mine- The Killers
Closing Credits: MxPx- Take on Me | | |
| Friday- The same idiot started another trashcan fire at south and we had to go outside in the snow for half an hour. i was in AP US and we started a snowball fight with the other history classes. That was fine until Liz came up behind me and smashed snow in my face. We got to stay in history an extra hour and finish the movie, and I missed half an hour of chem. I felt bad for the people who we giving blood when is happened (we were having a blood drive that day). Friday night, degrassi, what not to wear, and pizza.
Saturday, took the ACT. It wasn't bad but I would have liked to have slept past 7 and done something else with the first 5 hours of my day. Saturday night I went to Alison's party. It was really fun. Apples to apples was good even though sarah and i weren't allowed to hold the cards or decide which ones to use. Alison is h-e-l-l-a-z nice, and Tom had mad dance skillz. I definitely lost track of time and ended up getting home 40 minutes late but no one really seemed to care.
Today I went to the Cathedral with my grandma to watch my mom sing. It was... nice. | | |
| It's been a while and I'm being forced to update, so here it goes.
YIG this weekend was pretty great. I was really dreading going and didn't want to be a committee chair and such, but everything turned out really well. I had forgotten how cool the people are. The only things I can think of that would have made it better are more sleep and warmer weather. Walking around Jeff City in the cold was pretty miserable.
Missing school is bad. I don't recommend it. The majority of classes I didn't miss anything important but man, chem. It wasn't so much that it was a hard unit, more that I was completely panicked about having missed the lecture and not having notes til Sunday night (kisses, thank you mon). It wasn't good. And I have so much math to do this week..... eh. I probably shouldn't be spending my time writing this.
Saturday night after much delay and frustration and some arguing with my parents I went to Matt's house and we watched the virgin suicides, which was really good, and empire records. I didn't get to see the end of empire records but the beginning was good. I also got a few CDs and books and so far they're really good.
I've been thinking about a lot of things lately and for the most part hating life more and more. Especially certain people. I decided I don't regret what happened and I decided what ideally I would want to happen now, but I know it can't. I wish I could just spill everything and explain how I feel, but it would be pointless. I know where this person stands and I'm not gonna change it. Just seeing this person's screen name show up on my buddy list brings me to tears and I realize how stupid that sounds and I hate it, but... gah. So what do I do? Which is worse, going through everything all over again every time we talk, or not talking at all? I really don't know, but I really can't take it anymore. School and a few other things are bad, but that's my main reason for hating life. | | |
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